April 5th 2008

I'm exhausted. Today, we (and by me, I mean me and the fam) watched general conference. The whole time I crochetted on this REALLY cute baby blankie that I'm making:) My oldest sister, Samantha, is having a baby girl named Amelia Gwen Kennicott!!! I am SO excited to be an aunt!! I just got my license, so when she is born, I'll be babysitting her a lot. I want to take her to the zoo, wheeler farm(of course when she gets a little older), and to all these cute little kid places!! So yeah, back to the blanket. It's dark pink, light pink, and white. I'll get a picture of it so far on here as soon as I can kife a camera. But it's turning out really well, so I'm happy for the most part... I dunno what's wrong with me lately. I'm kinda depressive, but I'll get over it, I'm sure. Just REALLY stressed with everything. But anywho, other than that slight very minor factor, things are ok. I started season 8 of friends and BAM!!! Joey likes Rachel!! WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT!?!?!? But it's kinda weird since she's pregnant and all. And I know that in the end, she really does end up with Ross, but it sould be NOW!! lol.. Wow. My life. The Twilight series and Friends. I'm a total loser:) But it's ok because it's not like I'm trying to impress anyone, right? Ha.......Ha............... But yeah. Things are ok.



Broken

Each wrong word brings the blade closer,
The intentions of pain settle deep,
She's trying, she's helpless,
She's crying but can't confess.
She loves him too much, too complete.
Each remark cuts and the tip finally touches,
The soft perfect skin starts to tear.
Her blood that is spilling's too innocent, too willing,
He'd save her, but doesn't really care.

His eyes were too blind, and his heart was too cold,
But she reached for him, crying his name.
Yet he still couldn't hear, and he didn't look back,
And he left, ignoring her pain.
Shoved in still deeper, the blood flowed more freely,
Her breath caught, she chocked on the tears.
Until finally it cracked, scarred and broken in pieces,
Her heart leaking all of its fears.


Ok, so when I let my stupid, not-my-friend-anymore friend Cassie read this, she said that I sound emo. But I guess I can see that. It sounds like I'm talking about cutting, but I'm not. It's totally metaphorical as in the words he was saying and the things he was doing just hurt her more and more. But anyways, let me know what you think.

April 2, 2008

So today was...interesting. I'm enrolled in this really difficult math 10/50 course at Salt Lake Community College even though I'm a sophmore in high school. It's really stressful, but I'm handling it.... I hope. We had this lesson on complex multi-functions that was SO HARD, but I was totally getting it!! We got this huge assignment, and I even finished half of it in class. Then spring break happened. I put it off until the day before I went back to the class, and when I tried to finish it, I couldn't remember! So I went to class and whew! I remembered. So we got another assignment today, so I had to finish both in order to catch up. After school, I spent two hours working on them, so I'm kinda tired out. But after, I watched two whole discs of Friends!! I LOVE that show!! I settled down on my bed with my 2 liter cherry-vanilla diet Dr. Pepper with my mini DVD player, and settled back :) OH!! And then I went to young women's and watched The Wizard of Oz and it was CRAZY!! Me and Dusty, Hanna, and Kassey were so HYPER. We had so much junk that I'm feeling a little queasy, but it's great :)